so here goes: (copy+paste lang po ito, maybe a little tweaking)
this may not be the best time to talk about my plans in life, because i'm about two months (now two or three weeks) away from graduating, and i should've given this thing a lot of thought before the school year even started. but what the hell, i couldn't help myself from living life like i want to. (just to clarify things, i *have* made up my mind now)
college. so i passed BA Organizational Communication at UP Manila. great. first choice campus, second choice course. good, but not good enough to get the course i actually REALLY wanted. intarmed. oo, i accept na, pangarap ka na lang for me. sige, i'll move on. one day.
so yes. i passed. most probably, i'll be going there for college. okay. baseline. i don't like organizational communication. well, not that i DON'T LIKE it. siguro, for the most part, it's because i don't fully understand WHAT the course is about or what it's for. but then again, i do know that it relates to some management and duh, communication. for some info and background, read this.
okay. so english. language. maybe i can live with that. pero hello, i might as well have chosen journalism, or masscomm. which, by the way, do not interest me at all.
to be honest. one of the reasons i chose that course during application, was because it was a non-quota course, so i won't have any trouble getting in just in case. and i guess the course IS okay..
I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR. in a way that i start out as a medical student, not a BA-blahblah student, who then proceeds to medicine proper. i can't imagine myself doing anything else in life besides becoming one. it's always been a goal. sige, sabihin niyo na'ng gumagaya lang ako sa ate ko. go ahead, say it. pero just so you know, NO, I'M NOT. basta ba'ng we have the same things that we want in life, or want to do in life, may gumagaya na sa isa? no, it doesn't mean that. it means that she wants something for herself, and i want this as well because i believe i can make a lot of things happen in my life if i get it. pero oo, sige na. i am not going to be a medical student.
i know i can always shift to another course the next sem, but the thought of being left behind one sem from my classmates (presently, i mean) does not appeal to me. i want to go to college without any failing grades, shifts, repeats, or anything for that matter. gusto kong mag-college na diretso-diretso, as if nasa highschool pa ako. na para bang walang hinto ang buhay sa paaralan, dahil naka-sked lahat. i don't want to be NOT interested in my course because i know God gave it to me, but i can't help thinking of what i must have done wrong sa exam. bakit di ko nagawang pumasa sa first choice ko? mas ma-aacept ko pa siguro ang speech pathology na course. well, duh, because it's medicine-related.
and the worst part of all this? the same as the best part. i can always proceed sa medicine, after my four years sa OrgComm. but i'm sure, by then, ang hirap na ng buhay ko. by then, ayoko nang mag-aral. mawawalan na siguro ako nang gana because in the first place, i'm not all that into it sa course ko. and then about what my mom said. that i can take courses na lang sa summer, so that i'll have some background on biology, orgchem, chem, physics (kung meron ba), etc for when i proceed to med after the four years. okay. so in short, wala na ako'ng life.
i would've liked going to ateneo de manila, for the AB psychology course i passed. but i wasn't able to send an application for the scholarship. so yes, hindi namin ma-afford. hello. ang mahal.
ust? the courses i passed for were medical also. but yun nga, mahal as well.
the problem lang naman kasi.. is that admu is in quezon, and ust is somewhere far as well. intramuros ba? idk. basta far from malate, where my sister is, and where we can live together na lang. so yes, that's a definite no no no.
xavier university. also psychology. mag-xavier na lang kaha ko? magkauban pa mi sa ako classmates. LOL.
okay, bitter na lagi ko about my future college life. accept na nako. sorry. this is just how i am. pero, it's just that.. i don't know what my life would be after OrgComm (sa 4 years).
and now.. i am confused with my life. sorry Lord.
college. so i passed BA Organizational Communication at UP Manila. great. first choice campus, second choice course. good, but not good enough to get the course i actually REALLY wanted. intarmed. oo, i accept na, pangarap ka na lang for me. sige, i'll move on. one day.
so yes. i passed. most probably, i'll be going there for college. okay. baseline. i don't like organizational communication. well, not that i DON'T LIKE it. siguro, for the most part, it's because i don't fully understand WHAT the course is about or what it's for. but then again, i do know that it relates to some management and duh, communication. for some info and background, read this.
okay. so english. language. maybe i can live with that. pero hello, i might as well have chosen journalism, or masscomm. which, by the way, do not interest me at all.
to be honest. one of the reasons i chose that course during application, was because it was a non-quota course, so i won't have any trouble getting in just in case. and i guess the course IS okay..
I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR. in a way that i start out as a medical student, not a BA-blahblah student, who then proceeds to medicine proper. i can't imagine myself doing anything else in life besides becoming one. it's always been a goal. sige, sabihin niyo na'ng gumagaya lang ako sa ate ko. go ahead, say it. pero just so you know, NO, I'M NOT. basta ba'ng we have the same things that we want in life, or want to do in life, may gumagaya na sa isa? no, it doesn't mean that. it means that she wants something for herself, and i want this as well because i believe i can make a lot of things happen in my life if i get it. pero oo, sige na. i am not going to be a medical student.
i know i can always shift to another course the next sem, but the thought of being left behind one sem from my classmates (presently, i mean) does not appeal to me. i want to go to college without any failing grades, shifts, repeats, or anything for that matter. gusto kong mag-college na diretso-diretso, as if nasa highschool pa ako. na para bang walang hinto ang buhay sa paaralan, dahil naka-sked lahat. i don't want to be NOT interested in my course because i know God gave it to me, but i can't help thinking of what i must have done wrong sa exam. bakit di ko nagawang pumasa sa first choice ko? mas ma-aacept ko pa siguro ang speech pathology na course. well, duh, because it's medicine-related.
and the worst part of all this? the same as the best part. i can always proceed sa medicine, after my four years sa OrgComm. but i'm sure, by then, ang hirap na ng buhay ko. by then, ayoko nang mag-aral. mawawalan na siguro ako nang gana because in the first place, i'm not all that into it sa course ko. and then about what my mom said. that i can take courses na lang sa summer, so that i'll have some background on biology, orgchem, chem, physics (kung meron ba), etc for when i proceed to med after the four years. okay. so in short, wala na ako'ng life.
i would've liked going to ateneo de manila, for the AB psychology course i passed. but i wasn't able to send an application for the scholarship. so yes, hindi namin ma-afford. hello. ang mahal.
ust? the courses i passed for were medical also. but yun nga, mahal as well.
the problem lang naman kasi.. is that admu is in quezon, and ust is somewhere far as well. intramuros ba? idk. basta far from malate, where my sister is, and where we can live together na lang. so yes, that's a definite no no no.
xavier university. also psychology. mag-xavier na lang kaha ko? magkauban pa mi sa ako classmates. LOL.
okay, bitter na lagi ko about my future college life. accept na nako. sorry. this is just how i am. pero, it's just that.. i don't know what my life would be after OrgComm (sa 4 years).
and now.. i am confused with my life. sorry Lord.
ikr. grabe. tsk.
pero yes, i have made up my mind now. magshi-shift na lang ako. to some other course where i'm happier (duh, alangan na ba i shift to a course where i'm miserable. haha) :)
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